every thing is moving so fast now. its because of my two jobs and my one class and my seven roommates. i have an emotional life changing moment everyday. but i dont ever sit and ponder on it anymore because i always have somewhere to be. my life is full of things that are changing me- is this what happens when you finally "make it." im not sure, last night i sat and dreamed about one man and this morning i sat and dreamt about a different one. then went places and pondered other things-- along the line of continuity, learning, patterns, returning. thats what my life is filled with these days continuity, learning, patterns, returning, it seems like thats what ive been striving for for years. i feel that there is nothing more i need because i have my continuitylearningpatternsandreturning. i sit here and i dont need anything else. and i sit and im bored and i dont mind. and i work on things without fearand i interact with more people than i have since i was in highschool .i sit in these moments and i dont exist in anyother moments. i dont ever say it that much because i dont want to jinx it. usually it exists as a warm feeling in my mind that marinates and seeps its way into all. i know when you say things they change. so i cant say it that much.

when i look into your eyes i know this moment is love. we dont know eachother much and i will never see your home and i wont see you maybe at all in a year.