its a bit weird to be so seen all the time. i feel seen but i feel so guarded at the same time~ despite you seeing me youre not really seeing me. theres also this feeling of youre seeing me in a way i am physically incapable of seeing myself and you still really appreciate me. So like feeling guarded and unseen but also also exposed. i dont know how both can exist at the same time so maybe thats why i feel so weird.
i think its also me assuming others wrong like i thought you were just like everyone in this part of yourself but youre way deeper than you let on and i think ive been forcing that too much on you instead of letting you exist around me. People who are easy to project your ideas of them onto. Im sorry for projecting my ideas onto you.
so now i've got to let it settle and give it some breathing room and let that attitude i had fall off. ill be able to get to know you better in a bit.