its literally whatever i keep thinking these things about myself some sort of realizations i think to myself like am i completelty self involved and i think probably but also like its good to understand yourself but if i start to believe too hard in what i understand about myself i completely disregard natural change so i have to understandmyself as constantly in a flowing state im never as i was and i have not idea what i will be im always inbetween and i love it im the most comfortable there i can own something for a second but i hope to let it go the next and tbh like that s what this season is all about deciduous and i dont even know but ive been having dreams and maybe even im making connections but i just dont know yet but its fall the season of epiphany and dropping ded what and deciduous so hell yeah bring it on